I want to say that these few days have been particularly trying on my mental state, but if I want to be honest, it seems as though karma took some time off, essentially, to bitch slap me with any negative karma lingering from any bad thing I've ever done in my entire life, all in the past few months, especially in these past few weeks.
I want to say I've gotten stronger. I want to say I'm already a strong person. I want to say I've been through worst, but all this bottling up hasn't made it better for me. I just want one moment away from everyone to cry it all out, or to take part in one really nutso sparring session to get all this pent-up frustration out of my system, and move on, you know? We need those days sometimes.
Time is passing by, and I'm not a child anymore. I'm no nonsensical chick -- I know I can't just give my problems to my mom and expect her to make everything better, I have responsibilities, too. It's just hard sometimes, because I'm trying so hard. I really am doing the best I possibly can. I'm only struggling to stay on the life path paved out for me.
And to think, a piece of paper would make it all better. As Hayley Williams says, "I could really use a wish right now."
"Airplaines" - B.o.B ft. Hayley Williams
p.s. I'd like to thank all the men in my life for being deadbeat everything's; without you all, I wouldn't have been as independent and as strong-willed as a woman. Also, if it weren't for you all, I would have figured out too late that you're all different versions of the same asshole.
