What's even more sad is that I skipped my 11:30am human geography class because I wanted to watch the TYRA SHOW! I'm starting to re-evaluate my bad habits. I believe that it was not a coincidence that I watched The Biggest Loser for the first time last night. It inspired me to inspire myself, even when you haven't got much to work for.
I believe that in order for me to cease these bad habits of mine, a few tasks need to be completed.
Here's a list of what I need to do:
- I need to finish filling out my agenda; when I'm organized I feel an obligation to accomplish, and I feel guilty when I don't meet those obligations... and I don't like to feel guilty. Plus, as they say, you need to get the ideas down on paper first.
- I need to join my schools gym; the routine of working out will be a challenge to maintain, but if I keep up the habit, it'll be easy for me to maintain the habit of going to my classes.
- Change my availability at work... again. Three weekdays plus both days in the weekend are too much. As much as I think I can balance both, I really can't. At least without screwing my school up (ha).
- I need to change my sleeping pattern. The things about that is that I st my alarm for the right time to wake up, and then I don't get up. most of the time, I'm just tires, or I feel I won't be able to get ready that quickly, like, at all. I don't even make the effort and just doze back to sleep!
In regards to number 4., I can say that it isn't the same case for work however. I set my alarm, and it doesn't matter if I have 2 seconds to get ready, I just do. That's because there are consequences, immediate consequences... not to mention that need money and Gap is my only means to it! I mean, I'm no desperato, like that girl on Melrose Place, of who's name I've forgotten, but you know, I need my cash right now bro! The question is, how can I manage to make myself feel the name need to go to my classes that I feel when I go to work?
Realistically, I have equal if not more of a reason to go to my classes, seeing as the money I'm making from Gap is going directly to them! AND I need to pass those classes with high marks so that I can get my degree, so that I can get into a career that I want to be in! It's scary, but Melrose Place is kind of stressing me out to tel you the truth; it's so real life (still plot-filled for good television) and so in a place where I'll soon be. On a side note, none of these shows are relatable at the moment. One Tree Hill, Melrose Place, and 90210 are set in different life phases from myself. Gossip Girl people are too rich, and even though we're both in the same life phase, like I said, they're super rich! Chuck owns a chain of hotels for God's sake!
Maybe its for the rich kids to relate to.
And all of my other shows are too... unreal to be real. That means I can't draw on anything from any of my idol shows, which sucks! Anyway, I did, however, think of a way to make myself want to go to my classes. I'll just go!
Once I attend one of my classes, I'll feel a need to attend more regularly because I'll feel accepted in that class as a student. I'd feel as though I'm a part of something. Once I start seeing more good results, like my lab mark, I'll want to go more.
This is what I wrote a while ago. Things are different now; I go to my classes (with the exception of ADMS, but that'll change next week), I don't work as often (actually, I haven't worked for the week - Janice is a bitch, I'll prove that later on tonight when I get my schedule for next week.), and although I haven't signed up in my gym yet, I plan to next week. At least I'm playing volleyball!
