Yay!! 
Whip out the scotch - oh wait, on second thought don't, someone might see and label me!
That's okay, I give standing to anyone who may label me as such because: (1) they don't know me, and (2) I gave them a wasted first impression, and even though I didn't yell any profanities, nor did I do anything sexually suggestive, I was still wasted.
Yes, it's the first anniversary of of the biggest mistakes of my life. I feel like I killed someone. This is something I will never let go of. It's on the list after my problems with that fat-ass - yes! Right after! ... but in all seriousness, even though I'm sure people have done worst, my mistake will never be let over. Compare it to a job: no matter what you do, that first time you were scheduled to come in for work, you were 2 hours late, leaving only one person to run the store! The company will always remember you fucked up in the beginning, but if you work hard, extra hard, you won't carry a horrible reputation with you. In fact, the only way to get out of that horrible reputation is to keep your loyalties to the company for several years without making that same mistake again.
For me, the company is family, who ehat me (not a spelling error, and YES, I'm over-eggaerating), and now that I've made claims to do things (make a cheese cake) I'm a horrible, horrible person. It's like, why don't you just through out everything I give you? It's not like you want it? Anyway, off topic. Um, all I can do is live life right? It's not like I'm like that normally, so I don't have to try extra hard to be good. I am very good, normally! Fuck. Every year around this time, or better yet, anytime I'm going to the house or see any of the family members, I'm always reminded of my mistake, and that I'm some horrible person for making that one mistake. YES, I'M EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW, haha.
Anyway, let's hope I can get over this. That's gonna happen when I get the chance to tell them I'm not like that and they can give me positive feedback, but that's not gonna happen, which means that I'm never going to get over this lol.
I think I'm going to pray for this to get better. And for me to get over the fat-ass-bitch stuff. God always makes things better. Fuck, I wanted to go to church today!
Whip out the scotch - oh wait, on second thought don't, someone might see and label me!
That's okay, I give standing to anyone who may label me as such because: (1) they don't know me, and (2) I gave them a wasted first impression, and even though I didn't yell any profanities, nor did I do anything sexually suggestive, I was still wasted.
Yes, it's the first anniversary of of the biggest mistakes of my life. I feel like I killed someone. This is something I will never let go of. It's on the list after my problems with that fat-ass - yes! Right after! ... but in all seriousness, even though I'm sure people have done worst, my mistake will never be let over. Compare it to a job: no matter what you do, that first time you were scheduled to come in for work, you were 2 hours late, leaving only one person to run the store! The company will always remember you fucked up in the beginning, but if you work hard, extra hard, you won't carry a horrible reputation with you. In fact, the only way to get out of that horrible reputation is to keep your loyalties to the company for several years without making that same mistake again.
For me, the company is family, who ehat me (not a spelling error, and YES, I'm over-eggaerating), and now that I've made claims to do things (make a cheese cake) I'm a horrible, horrible person. It's like, why don't you just through out everything I give you? It's not like you want it? Anyway, off topic. Um, all I can do is live life right? It's not like I'm like that normally, so I don't have to try extra hard to be good. I am very good, normally! Fuck. Every year around this time, or better yet, anytime I'm going to the house or see any of the family members, I'm always reminded of my mistake, and that I'm some horrible person for making that one mistake. YES, I'M EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW, haha.
Anyway, let's hope I can get over this. That's gonna happen when I get the chance to tell them I'm not like that and they can give me positive feedback, but that's not gonna happen, which means that I'm never going to get over this lol.
I think I'm going to pray for this to get better. And for me to get over the fat-ass-bitch stuff. God always makes things better. Fuck, I wanted to go to church today!
