Uuhh... well, by definition, it's roots lay in religious solitary seclusion; however, in mass medium it's been popularized as any reclusive individual.
Now, if you apply that to seasons, particularly the one we're in right now, and then apply that to persons, the proper term would be a summer hermit, no?
I didn't feel like writing a bunch of other crap, I just needed an intro.
I'm thinking about becoming a summer hermit, seeing as my new realization has stripped almost every need to be around people (haha). Actually, that's extreme, let's try it again ...seeing as my new realization has liberated me of my bonds to the negative aspects of social life (like jealousy, selfishness, etc). It's not to say that I don't want to be around my friends, I love them. I just don't have that need to be around masses of people of whom I find I have to prove myself to, JUST because I don't want to be left out.
I have nothing to prove (except for the fact that I'm fucking awsome). The fact is, I've decided that for anyone to get to know me, the interest has to be mutual; no one sided bullshit. I'm not trying if you're not trying, I don't care if society says I have to prove something to you. No more will I make a grand deal of effort to please people, be what they hope me to be.
This summer hermit status isn't a general disposition, rather it's situational discourse, meaning you will never know if I decide to be a hermit. I won't even know. Some days, I won't want to chill (because I feel I'll have to make too much effort) and some days I will. Maybe the best bet is to not invite me anymore (hahaha), it'll help me get over my insecurities... or will it make them worst? Probably so. I guess I'll just try to find a balance.
In truth, I really just want to enjoy life, and not freak out when my friends tell me they went camping with their family because I wanted to go too (well I don't freak out). I want to be able to not care so much. I feel like I have so much care, and I guess I just want that reciprocated. I know, weird how it goes from one thing to another. I feel like a little puppy: I hear that my owner is going with their significant other on their honeymoon and I want to go too, but I slowly realize after not being invited that it's "their" honeymoon, not mine. Bad analogy? Sometimes I'm spot on, sometimes I'm not. I just have an excited puppy personality.
5/29/09
I'm SO Not Happy Right Now
- wake up: 12:00pm
- toss in Bed: 12:05pm - 12:36pm
- get up: 12:37pm
- brush teeth/Wash face: 12:37pm - 12:41pm
- listen to my mom talk crap: 12:42pm - 12:45pm
- eat cereal: 12:44pm - 12:50pm
- log into hotmail: 12:50pm
- read H&M email: 12:51pm
- get really pissed off: 12:52pm
"Dear Kemeny,
Thank you for your interest in working with H&M.
We regret to inform you that we are unable to offer you an opportunity with our company.
Thank you again for the time and effort that you have invested in your application and we wish you all the best in the future.
Sincerely,
Recruitment Department
H&M Hennes & Mauritz Inc., Canada"
- toss in Bed: 12:05pm - 12:36pm
- get up: 12:37pm
- brush teeth/Wash face: 12:37pm - 12:41pm
- listen to my mom talk crap: 12:42pm - 12:45pm
- eat cereal: 12:44pm - 12:50pm
- log into hotmail: 12:50pm
- read H&M email: 12:51pm
- get really pissed off: 12:52pm
"Dear Kemeny,
Thank you for your interest in working with H&M.
We regret to inform you that we are unable to offer you an opportunity with our company.
Thank you again for the time and effort that you have invested in your application and we wish you all the best in the future.
Sincerely,
Recruitment Department
H&M Hennes & Mauritz Inc., Canada"
5/27/09
Life = Not Fair
Are they not hiring full-time anymore???
Am I officially unemployable????
They won't hire me at H&M EVEN though I've already worked with Sears and Indigo???
I see the people in H&M; half of them are so childish and unprofessional looking (with the exception of Mar). This bullshit "apply online" crap is so frustrating nowadays.
My resume and cover letter are clearly better than others, so what the fuck is up?!
Am I officially unemployable????
They won't hire me at H&M EVEN though I've already worked with Sears and Indigo???
I see the people in H&M; half of them are so childish and unprofessional looking (with the exception of Mar). This bullshit "apply online" crap is so frustrating nowadays.
My resume and cover letter are clearly better than others, so what the fuck is up?!
5/26/09
E=mc2 ... mass is coverted into energy?
Made it through one hell of a study period.
My Nats exam was today, and while I had a good 4 days to study, I only spent sunday night and Monday morning (haha). I WILL SAY THIS ... I studied damn good for a sunday night and monday morning. I'm positive that I got half of those questions right, MOREOVER, there were 8 short answer questions (of which 6 had to be answered) and I'm positive that I got 4 of them right. That's really good!
Next year however will not be the same = work work work work work work work work work sleep work work work work work work sleep with vin work work work work work eat work work work work work work pay rent - yes, because I'll be at The Village next year! Unless we move, because personally, I'd rather be bringing money into my collective home instead of paying rent somewhere else that is an hour and a half closer. I can sacrifice 3 hours to and from school to save $3600. Yes I can do that. I need to find a job first though! I'm going to be working at H&M, although I'm starting to not want to work there anymore to tell you the truth. I'm not sure what I want exactly. I don't want to work actually... hmm... I need to think about this.
Now is around the time when I get job offers but don't feel like working. Oh, someone help me - find a job!
My Nats exam was today, and while I had a good 4 days to study, I only spent sunday night and Monday morning (haha). I WILL SAY THIS ... I studied damn good for a sunday night and monday morning. I'm positive that I got half of those questions right, MOREOVER, there were 8 short answer questions (of which 6 had to be answered) and I'm positive that I got 4 of them right. That's really good!
Next year however will not be the same = work work work work work work work work work sleep work work work work work work sleep with vin work work work work work eat work work work work work work pay rent - yes, because I'll be at The Village next year! Unless we move, because personally, I'd rather be bringing money into my collective home instead of paying rent somewhere else that is an hour and a half closer. I can sacrifice 3 hours to and from school to save $3600. Yes I can do that. I need to find a job first though! I'm going to be working at H&M, although I'm starting to not want to work there anymore to tell you the truth. I'm not sure what I want exactly. I don't want to work actually... hmm... I need to think about this.
Now is around the time when I get job offers but don't feel like working. Oh, someone help me - find a job!
5/22/09
Three Things You Don't Want To Do...
1. Don't accuse me of doing something I didn't do if I tell you I know I didn't do it.
2. Don't tell me I'm a certain way if you don't know me.
and most importantly ..
3. Do not EVER call me a liar.
2. Don't tell me I'm a certain way if you don't know me.
and most importantly ..
3. Do not EVER call me a liar.
A Bad Case of Non-Sleep-Itis
I'm so tired...
I feel like dropping somewhere and just passing out.
I'm yawning, my eye lids feel heavier than usual, I'm rubbing my eyes like a mad woman with no energy, my body's stiff, my muscles hurt, and I have to start my notes for my NATS exam coming up on Monday so that I can start cramming by tomorrow night.
That whole facade of science that claims women exhibit hormones that give them the need to cuddle after sex - yeah, not me. I drop like a log. I think that hypothesis is credible for most women, but not all.
While on that topic, I made "Vinny" one of the most spectacular cakes I've ever made anyone last night. It was great fun. He loved it too. He luurrvvveeed it. It was hot stuff. It got me tired after. Plus I did yoga with the yoga-guy yesterday (Trish, Auds, and Mvb were there as well), and my body hurts like a bitch. It's like he's TRYING to give me man arms! His name is Terence by the way. He said "namasay" - yes, I know I didn't spell it right - which means he isn't Tibetan after all :( ... that's alright though, he's still a sexay beast!
I feel like dropping somewhere and just passing out.
I'm yawning, my eye lids feel heavier than usual, I'm rubbing my eyes like a mad woman with no energy, my body's stiff, my muscles hurt, and I have to start my notes for my NATS exam coming up on Monday so that I can start cramming by tomorrow night.
That whole facade of science that claims women exhibit hormones that give them the need to cuddle after sex - yeah, not me. I drop like a log. I think that hypothesis is credible for most women, but not all.
While on that topic, I made "Vinny" one of the most spectacular cakes I've ever made anyone last night. It was great fun. He loved it too. He luurrvvveeed it. It was hot stuff. It got me tired after. Plus I did yoga with the yoga-guy yesterday (Trish, Auds, and Mvb were there as well), and my body hurts like a bitch. It's like he's TRYING to give me man arms! His name is Terence by the way. He said "namasay" - yes, I know I didn't spell it right - which means he isn't Tibetan after all :( ... that's alright though, he's still a sexay beast!
5/21/09
"If He brought you to it, He can get you through it!"
Everytime something goes wrong in my life, there's always something else that's even better to be grateful for. This was at my own fault, but I wouldn't say deliberately nor directly.
After canceling three consecutive Thursday's, this fourth Thursday was supposed to be it. I didn't wan to. I even wrote my T.A. an email stating that he could give me a zero if he wanted (thinking about it, why would he want to do that?). But he kept postponing it, and postponing it, until I had to say yes. I said yes to this morning, and now it's noon. In other words, I fucked up this opportunity by sleeping in later than I should have and missed the last day to run my presentation on a topic I didn't want to do but did anyway in class, when there would have been hardly anyone there, giving myself a zero and THUS enabling myself to not get the minimum needed to keep the program as a double majour.
Am I supposed to take the course again?? I don't want to do that. I don't think they even offer that course in summer school. Honestly, I'm not sure what I will do with that. I like communications (now that I know it), but I don't want to do the course again, wasting more money for a credit I already have, JUST to get a better mark. I could be taking another course in that time ... another two courses actually, since it's a 9 credit. I just don't know what I should switch into if I do switch into anything else ...
I'm going to stay on campus next year (applying today).
Benefits include:
- Closer to school = no more 3 hour trips throughout the day!
= no more having to leave at 11:30am for a 1pm class!
= having more time to do assignments!
= I can go to the gym more often and join sports teams!
- Staying by myself (with a room mate at Pond or a house of room mates at the Village)
= can study WAY better.
= Ppl's can sleep over after we go to the club or whatever.
= Not having to deal with family bullshit 24/7 that obstructs me from my studies!!! (..even though I love them)
= can take on a heavier course load
= obvious benefits here...
= Make a new circle of friends
= ... a new circle of friends.
The cons are predominantly up to $5500 shooting out of my ass to pay for shit!
Which will suck majour donkey balls, but I really want to go on campus, so I'm willing to.
Even if it's for just one year.
Not likely... not impossible, but not likely.
After canceling three consecutive Thursday's, this fourth Thursday was supposed to be it. I didn't wan to. I even wrote my T.A. an email stating that he could give me a zero if he wanted (thinking about it, why would he want to do that?). But he kept postponing it, and postponing it, until I had to say yes. I said yes to this morning, and now it's noon. In other words, I fucked up this opportunity by sleeping in later than I should have and missed the last day to run my presentation on a topic I didn't want to do but did anyway in class, when there would have been hardly anyone there, giving myself a zero and THUS enabling myself to not get the minimum needed to keep the program as a double majour.
Am I supposed to take the course again?? I don't want to do that. I don't think they even offer that course in summer school. Honestly, I'm not sure what I will do with that. I like communications (now that I know it), but I don't want to do the course again, wasting more money for a credit I already have, JUST to get a better mark. I could be taking another course in that time ... another two courses actually, since it's a 9 credit. I just don't know what I should switch into if I do switch into anything else ...
I'm going to stay on campus next year (applying today).
Benefits include:
- Closer to school = no more 3 hour trips throughout the day!
= no more having to leave at 11:30am for a 1pm class!
= having more time to do assignments!
= I can go to the gym more often and join sports teams!
- Staying by myself (with a room mate at Pond or a house of room mates at the Village)
= can study WAY better.
= Ppl's can sleep over after we go to the club or whatever.
= Not having to deal with family bullshit 24/7 that obstructs me from my studies!!! (..even though I love them)
= can take on a heavier course load
= obvious benefits here...
= Make a new circle of friends
= ... a new circle of friends.
The cons are predominantly up to $5500 shooting out of my ass to pay for shit!
Which will suck majour donkey balls, but I really want to go on campus, so I'm willing to.
Even if it's for just one year.
Not likely... not impossible, but not likely.
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